How was it like to get 'ditched', even before the relationship?

:( (Definitely la, who likes to be ditched? No one including myself.)

During my CCA camp, some of my colleagues were asking if I am single or attached and they volunteered to look out for girls for me! At once when i heard this, I blushed and responded that i am all right with any girls... Questions like: Must she be pretty? Must her qualifications be lower that mine, etc all spewed out. And my reply? Any one also can, as long as she's a girl and a believer in Jesus Christ.

I remembered my 1st 'puppy love' was at P3, where an Indonesian gal by the name of Rosemary S. came into my class. She was i think a year older than us, and I was attracted to her looks (during my time, what do we know about BGR at that age??!!). I was really 'shy' then, but I knew that period was the happiest, cause I was very happy when I see her. After a few weeks, she informed us that she had to go, and I was covering myself with a book, crying...

Then a girl at Sec 1 caught my eye, and I took an interest in her. Sadly she responded negatively during Sec 2, and there goes my 2nd experience. This relationship was interesting as the last time i tried to meet her, it was post poly (She was exhibiting her FYP @ Suntec City @ 2011), and despite her 'no', I still tried to look for her (Sounds like stalking! Haha)

At Poly 1, another gal came into my life. I tried to initiate a relationship with her, but to no avail. Then it came stagnant for a year, before a sister of my age crossed my path. She was in the same ministry as I was and I wanted to initiate a relationship, but I did not have the chance to because I had no guts. It was until a few years later that she asked someone to inform me that I was not her type... A sword in my heart please...

Recently I said that I was quite low-mood-ed in my last 2 blogs. Cause I was 'rejected' by someone that I liked. I thought that she was the one for me liao, but she was not ready for a relationship... This one must use sodium thiopental on myself. This was the saddest, but I was prepared...

All these 'pseudo-relationships' that I had had one thing i common: It was one sided love... Since the recent one, i felt like giving up on finding the ewe lamb of my life, and do matchmake la. I really had that thot... Colleagues, if you are reading this, please help me find one. Thannks...

Yeo

term 2 week 3...

As I am preparing myself to zzz, i am dead beat as I had a CCA camp in school during the weekend..

BTW, I got a new bike! Not really a new one, just got new components and put them onto my pink frame.. Now the bike really looked like what it was supposed to be: A Triathlon bike.. My FB page got it's photos! Added bullhorn bars, barend shifters, pink handlebar tape, brake levers for Tri... Waiting for my pink wheels, coming in like end Apr.. Nice nice..

This week got a lot of school things: OM Competition, Learning Journey to WW2 sites, IFD, so many things to go through... Hope that I can learn abit from each (still a BT at this point) and still have strength..

Yeo

Stagnant Blog.. Sad sad..

After a 9 month haitus (start of work!), I went back to my little blog..

Looked dusty, and last note was on NIE studies.. Now want to add somethings..

What did I do for 9 months? After I got my posting to ACS(Pri), taught for 2 months or so, before I went for a 2 week volunteering for YOG! (Happiest weeks of the year). I also ran SAFRA 21k in Sept and Std Chart Marathon 42.2k in Dec..

This year? I did Singapore Biathlon 2011 (and slow as always), and volunteered for Milo Youth Triathlon (great day to chill). Got a P5 form class to teach and 12 hrs of Art a week!

Also had a sad sad night.. Don;t want to elaborate too much, just feeling low as I write my blog...

Will have a good rest tonight.. tomoro a long day to go!

Yeo